Beginning

To embark on a new journey requires a little hope. It also requires making a decision to start. I believe the first steps taken towards beginning are the most difficult. Today I decided to commit to writing one blog post each day for the next 365 days. It seems simple enough but it also feels frightening to suggest that I will hold myself accountable for my decision.

When it comes to speaking my truth I often struggle with criticizing my thoughts and ideas to the point of staying silent. This fear of full disclosure, I have no doubt, is the result of a past trauma. Although the particular events related to the traumatization have been healed, I am increasingly becoming aware of how layered and multifaceted trauma recovery is. As if peeling back each layer exposes something new to look at but could not be seen buried underneath the layers lying on top.

Recovery results in discovery. As I learn more about my own process I am also learning to begin again. It is important to embrace each opportunity we find to begin again. Embracing the unknown, and trusting in your own process allows for self -discovery. In allowing we can receive often ten-fold what we have committed to. This is the experience of the healing journey. A conformation that follows each time we cultivate beginning.